I can't really decide what I think about today. For one thing, it's only half over so far! But my day SO FAR. It's just been so strange.
Note: It's 3:44pm! I was born at that time ;) I'm in such a random state today.
Well, for starters. I dreamed that I was in a thrift shop with Mom, Will, and Karen (Will's mom). I was looking at a clock that was shaped like an owl, and it was really old and dusty. We all went back to my house, and once we were inside the kitchen, something happened (I don't remember what) that made Will aggravated with Karen, so he went out and sat in their car. Mom was up in her room. Karen was going to go talk to Will and go home, but I offered her chocolate mousse, so she decided to stay for a while. She ended up staying in my kitchen talking to me for about an hour. We talked on and on about pretty much anything that came up: Will, weekends, the owl clock I was looking at, etc. When Karen decided that she'd better go home with Will, I walked her out to her car and told Will he should have stayed inside to chat, but that I'd see him soon. He got really pouty and they left. That's all that happened. It was so strange when I woke up; I was just kind of "huh?" Haha.
And, for some reason, when I woke up, all I could think about was how I've never been anyone's first kiss. I know it seems really trivial and like it shouldn't matter.. But it's been aggravating me all day long! It's always made me feel really strange- that my first kiss wasn't his first kiss. But I never gave it much thought until this morning. Who knows why- I just woke up feeling that way. Strange. That's all I can think as to how to describe it. It's not like I should let it bother me too much, considering that as long as I don't cheat on Will, I'll never be anyone's first kiss. And I'm definitely not going to cheat on him! I love him way too damn much for that ♥. And I guess it doesn't BOTHER me to DEATH or anything, idk.. I just feel like it's something everyone experiences but me. No one will ever say that their first kiss was Kati Stafford. And even if that does happen one day (which it won't) it won't be cute at all, because I'm 17, not 12. So, I should let it go. And it is being let go, especially after I found out exciting news today!!
Maddy told me who her first kiss was! OMG! I'm freaking out. I'm not going to say too much, since this is a public blog.. I'm just going to say: FINALLY. Someone who UNDERSTANDS. I'm freaking out! I already said that. I don't care. I'm just super excited. Don't take it in the way that seems like I have a crush on her, because- I do not. But I'm still excited and freaking out and relieved and AHH! Yay :) I'm not alone!
It's been forever since I've blogged about something other than boring old summarizing of daily life. Though it's boring, and I say this all the time, it is important. I like to have exact dates to refer back to to see when something happened.
So, today's Wednesday, September 14th. I'm glad I just thought of that.. It's Michaela's birthday and I need to wish her happy birthday. Over the weekend, I had a UK college visit. Yeah.. don't think it's for me. But the trip was worthwhile, because I bought my homecoming dress :D! And then, Sunday was the Renaissance concert and dinner at school. I sang a solo, played a flute solo, sang in two quartets, one small ensemble, and I also performed with the choir. It was pretty fun :). A few people recited monologues, too, and there wasn't someone that did a bad job, so I thought that overall, we had a pretty good performance :)!!!
Why am I so happy right now?! I'm SO tired. I miss Will. I get to see him soon :). BYE!!! ♥
Note: It's 3:44pm! I was born at that time ;) I'm in such a random state today.
Well, for starters. I dreamed that I was in a thrift shop with Mom, Will, and Karen (Will's mom). I was looking at a clock that was shaped like an owl, and it was really old and dusty. We all went back to my house, and once we were inside the kitchen, something happened (I don't remember what) that made Will aggravated with Karen, so he went out and sat in their car. Mom was up in her room. Karen was going to go talk to Will and go home, but I offered her chocolate mousse, so she decided to stay for a while. She ended up staying in my kitchen talking to me for about an hour. We talked on and on about pretty much anything that came up: Will, weekends, the owl clock I was looking at, etc. When Karen decided that she'd better go home with Will, I walked her out to her car and told Will he should have stayed inside to chat, but that I'd see him soon. He got really pouty and they left. That's all that happened. It was so strange when I woke up; I was just kind of "huh?" Haha.
And, for some reason, when I woke up, all I could think about was how I've never been anyone's first kiss. I know it seems really trivial and like it shouldn't matter.. But it's been aggravating me all day long! It's always made me feel really strange- that my first kiss wasn't his first kiss. But I never gave it much thought until this morning. Who knows why- I just woke up feeling that way. Strange. That's all I can think as to how to describe it. It's not like I should let it bother me too much, considering that as long as I don't cheat on Will, I'll never be anyone's first kiss. And I'm definitely not going to cheat on him! I love him way too damn much for that ♥. And I guess it doesn't BOTHER me to DEATH or anything, idk.. I just feel like it's something everyone experiences but me. No one will ever say that their first kiss was Kati Stafford. And even if that does happen one day (which it won't) it won't be cute at all, because I'm 17, not 12. So, I should let it go. And it is being let go, especially after I found out exciting news today!!
Maddy told me who her first kiss was! OMG! I'm freaking out. I'm not going to say too much, since this is a public blog.. I'm just going to say: FINALLY. Someone who UNDERSTANDS. I'm freaking out! I already said that. I don't care. I'm just super excited. Don't take it in the way that seems like I have a crush on her, because- I do not. But I'm still excited and freaking out and relieved and AHH! Yay :) I'm not alone!
It's been forever since I've blogged about something other than boring old summarizing of daily life. Though it's boring, and I say this all the time, it is important. I like to have exact dates to refer back to to see when something happened.
So, today's Wednesday, September 14th. I'm glad I just thought of that.. It's Michaela's birthday and I need to wish her happy birthday. Over the weekend, I had a UK college visit. Yeah.. don't think it's for me. But the trip was worthwhile, because I bought my homecoming dress :D! And then, Sunday was the Renaissance concert and dinner at school. I sang a solo, played a flute solo, sang in two quartets, one small ensemble, and I also performed with the choir. It was pretty fun :). A few people recited monologues, too, and there wasn't someone that did a bad job, so I thought that overall, we had a pretty good performance :)!!!
Why am I so happy right now?! I'm SO tired. I miss Will. I get to see him soon :). BYE!!! ♥
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